Suaveh’s Speculations

WoW… sing to the tune of Beer by Itchyworms

Nais kong magpalevel ten
Kahit na tulala
Tulog ko ay nabibitin
Kape walang sawa

Nagpapalevel na ako sa mga kalaban na bumabangon sa mga hukay
Sila’y katulad ng itsura ko kapag naglalakad ako ay mukha nang bangkay

Giliw…
Paabot nga ng Visine
Ang mga araw ay bigla na lang naglaho
Dahil lumipas nang ako ay naglalaro
Lahat ng iyo’s nawala nung naadik ako
Kaya ngayon…

Chorus:
Sa Azeroth ako’y pumapatay na ng kalaban
Nagpapalevel na parang alang kinabukasan
Bawa’t attack, Bawa’t sapak
Ano ba talagang mas gusto ko
Ang WoW char ko o ang buhay na ‘to

Nais kong pumatay ng Trogg
Para sa items ko
Maghahanap ako ng Tin
At miminahin ko

Kukuha ako ng gear at ipapaenchant ko sa tao para lalo lumakas ito
Lahat ay aking gagawin upang lahat sila’y isipin na malakas na ako

Chorus:
Sa Lordaeron papatay na ako ng mga Ally
Maglalaro ako hanggang sa mawalan ng malay
Bawa’t patay, Maging tulay
Para tumaas ang level ko
Sa game na tong kinaadikan ko

Crossing the bridge unto the sun
Life goes on for everyone
And in the shadows you will find
My heart there I left behind

Not for one but beats for all
As silent whispers make their call
Buzzing shouts of death perverse
And makes one wish of time reverse

Of friendships forged by pressures high
Of the sights viewed by flying eye
Of nights spent out as waking hours
Of days spent out in crafting wars

Of moonlight princess’ kiss in dreams
Of moonlight beauty’s commanding beams
Of work that’s done by shuffling hands
Of those of whose dedication stands

Of angels with their joyous stride
Of the dark agents with great pride
Of talents shown in three or two
Of laughters shared with all of you

All these have past, in my mind rest
These memories among the best
My hands may not be by your sides
But in your place my heart resides

Last night I finished the Anime series Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu. It had a very confusing story, mainly because the episodes were not chronologically in order. As for their reasons for doing that, I don’t really know, but it did make the story interesting as to how the whole series would close.

But what really caught me was the philosophical aspect of the story. I won’t delve into much, but the biggest question I guess is…

What reality do you want to be in?

We all have the powers to create our own realities. It all depends on how much we will it. For some it is easy, for some it is hard… But we all have this capability.

The question I tend to ask after is… Is that reality true? Is that the "reality" that I’m supposed to be in?

Is that the reality God wants for me?

God wants a certain reality for me, and that is the reality that I must chase. Am I going to that direction now? I guess that’s one thing that I always ask in my prayers…

And now I guess I have more time, or more of… I devote more time to prayer than I used to in the past year. I get to go to mass everyday again. I get to receive the Lord everyday through communion again. I get to do 15 minutes of prayer everyday again.

For sure… This is part of the reality He wants for me. But for some reason I can’t help but think there’s something lacking in the reality I’m in right now. Like He wants me to do something…

Howell… I hope that my more frequent prayers would be able to give me more answers to these questions that I ask. After all, that and Spiritual Directions are the means to be able to understand the answer.

It’s been two weeks since I left Anino. What has happened so far? Well… I’ve been a bum for those past two weeks… just resting at home ^_^ Was supposed to be excited about going to Japan right now, but I guess it’s not going to happen… too bad my application was rejected. >_>

I made myself a level 40 faust in Philippine RF Online in the Omicron server, but I guess I got tired of playing RF na rin… After realizing that I might not really be able to achieve my goal of a perfectly PTed character… But yeah… It was fun being in the top spots of the board. Who knows I might come back in Omicron?

I guess I got to rest a lot… physically that is. Emotionally… somewhat. Kinda weird… as to I really felt like living in a telenovela, and I still do right now. It was really a memorable last month in Anino. For details, I won’t be posting them here. ^_^

Socially rested… I don’t think I should rest socially if ever. In RF I got to meet a lot of people. And I still have contact with my friends over YM or MSN. Though, I could say I relaxed my contacting others… Because I’m not online the whole day, unlike when I worked in Anino. Which is quite ironic…

But I guess the irony will change when I get into Makati. They say that instant messenger programs are not allowed in where I will be going, which is a big change for me, since I’ve been using YM ever since I got to register during 4th year college. Well… If ever it would make me start talking to others instead of YMing them to get to know them. ^_^

But… still it would somewhat disconnect me from some good friends that I have made… new or old…

I wonder what distractions I will now look for when I transfer? Maybe I would start doodling again at work… or maybe I would start to read up books? Or maybe I’ll really focus on my work when I’m there. ^_^

Pero for sure… I’m going to meet new people. I guess I’ve always liked meeting new people… I don’t really know how it happened… but ever since college I always wanted to go into a class without talking to others about it (except on some cases when I got a crush and went into it because of her… ) But I never really talked to my barkadas about it. I get into a class clueless as to who I will meet, hoping I’ll be able to make good friends. If there aren’t any who are of the same "wavelength" as I am, then tough luck, but I’ll be able to survive.

I guess even when I looked for work I also had such a mindset. I got into Anino without knowing anyone in there, except for Chow who referred me, and even so, he’s in the sister company and technically not in the same workplace as I am. But in a span of one year, I managed to have good friends in the company. Makes me sad that I have to leave them though…

Anyways, even into where I’ll transfer, I don’t know anyone there. Makes me wonder what will happen in my at least two year stay in their company…

Now, I guess I’ll start learning Java again, as that is what is going to be used in the company I’m transferring to. I’m quite rusty… last time I used it was in my graduating semester. Still, I always believed that it’s not the language, but the programmer that has a greater effect. And they’re going to teach me Java anyways, a few months training of it. I guess a few refresher courses would be at hand… Thank you Mr. Florendo for giving me a disc worth of reviewers of various languages, which, by the way, is what I used to learn C++ basics in one month.

But really, what excites me the most is meeting new friends… and also meeting old ones, as most of my old friends work at (a) nearby building(s). I guess I’ll be one highway nearer to them. ^_^ Kinda miss them really… Maybe it’s a chance to catch up on what things happened with them, and hopefully reforming the bonding that we had.

I’ll be one highway nearer to EBs, like those from TDP, and also some people that I’ve met over the net. Who knows? I might be able to be good friends with them…

But then I’ll be one highway away from you… Well, it’s better than an airplane away from you ^_^

Well… Whatever happens, I’m sure He has a plan for me, you, and all of us. That’s why He let all of these happen. As Popo has said and reminded me everytime, "Everything happens for a reason". I’ve always believed that, ever since I failed my thesis the first time. As for what reasons, we may not know always know on the spot, but I’m sure they’re always good, for all of us. All that I’m hoping for is that hopefully that future will include you in it.

Anyways… there goes my sporadic blogging schedule… I guess time to end this post. Dunno when I’ll be posting again… Whenever that is I hope that I’d be in a good place at a good time. ^_^

Take care people… Catch you when I catch you.

The broken analogies
Written at different times
Unseen ironies
Read between the lines

The pencil’s marks
Drawn about the night
Of little sparks
Of things that have might

The life’s dreams
The wishes that hope may come
Or the bridge that seems
A cross to the sun

And now nears dawn
The light creeps in
With seeds sown
In the heart’s within

What things to hold
What things to let go
I feel the cold
Because in me you grow

So dawn I greet
And hope for the best
That again we’ll meet
And again I’ll hear you jest

Six moons and two
Until I come back
In my heart I’ll keep you
Because you’re a part of me…

a sudden gust of wind you were

into this field of empty air

a friend i knew for her i care

through lots of laughs and some affair

in turn i asked myself to dare

if possible a life to share

to bring a smile to her face fair

in such short time when we’re aware

my guts she lifted up astair

and had my tehters broken there

yet apart we’ll be so i say a prayer

when though she’s here and i am there

i lift her up to God astair

to lengthen the time when we’re aware

so she’ll always smile with her face fair

though words we’ll only have to share

i still would want to go and dare

even if such would cause affair

but make sure show some proper care

because you now have filled my air

and a sudden gust you are no more

Timothy and Titus Closed Beta
February 6 to 10, 2006

Anino Entertainment is looking for volunteers to play the Beta version
of Timothy and Titus: Saints, Martyrs, and Heroes. Timothy and Titus is
a 3D children’s game for the PC, with a Christian theme and non-violent
gameplay. Volunteers will play at home with their own beta CD of the
game.

Requirements:
            - Loves to play video games especially games for the PC
            - CHANGED: No age requirement
            - Has regular access to the Internet
            - Willing to post bugs in our bug forum
            - Willing to pick up CD in Alabang

To apply, please visit http://www.aninogames.com . Thank you!

The Cycle of Love… A sinusoid… multiplied by e raised to a negative variable…

When will it reach 0?

Howell… It’s almost been a month since I started to let go, and I guess it’s still there… though I could say I’m making some progress. Thanks to some help of my friends, pressure in work, and a new game to play (RF Online!).

It’s not like it’s the first time I’ve thought about this… I’ve thought about it a lot of times na rin. I sometimes think about it and wonder why I held on to my feelings… and why I never showed them to her. I guess it might have been that… I never told her until recently.

Pero I guess it’s time to move on. She herself said it so. There are other girls out there… Honestly… Not only there are, but there were…

Anyways, no regrets. Everything happens for a reason. As for this, I’ve yet to find out.

As for RF, I guess it’s a nice game after all. I didn’t like it before, but I’m finally appreciating the game. I guess it’s because may mga kalaro na ako ngayon, namely Silme who’s my officemates. We’re still trying to convince one officemate of ours to play too. But I guess it’s hard to pull them out of DotA… hehe

What about Guild Wars, Civ and DotA? Civ is with my boss, trying to study the engine, and of course the game itself. DotA… well a barkada of my officemate wants to challenge us, so I guess it’s time to practice again for the battle.

As for Guild Wars… I dunno… ala yung mga kalaro ko rin e…

Absence makes the heart grow fonder…? I dunno ^_^

Missent message for a song request… sent to her instead to the DJ…

Doing Bonus Mission in Guild Wars Mission 1… last item did not spring up…

My whole party almost died… well… henchies lang naman so understandable…

Almost finishing the mission… IF THE STUPID SMART WIFI DID NOT FREAKING HAVE A LAG SPIKE???!!!

I’d really even want to have a constant 128kbps speed than a service with occasional bursting speed that also has occassional lag spikes.

And…

Goodbye… I guess…

for some reason nagtatake sya ng order sa isang small burger stand

tapos yung kabatch… tinulungan ako magfold…

Then my dream ended there…