Suaveh’s Speculations

Well, yeah there’s only one JAR who came from a video game company and transferred to a financial company in this world, AFAIK, and if people listened to Magic 89.9 tonight they might have heard someone reading my text to their Debate Wednesday topic. The topic was a choice between being in an underpaying dream job, or being in a high salary boring job. I could not help but want to tell my story, but since I didn’t have the battery I decided to text a long message, which was not read word per word, so a lot of info was lost or misread.

First of all, personally I think I was performing well in my old company. What I was trying to say was that I didn’t think my future was to stay in there. I felt that there was a lot more for me to improve upon myself, and I don’t feel that I was going to get it in that company. Good pay, good people, but I didn’t see myself in there after 5 years. Sorry to my old officemates who are reading this, but this is one of the things that I felt.

Second, my explanation at the end is this: For me, it’s not whether I have a higher paying job or I’m in the job that I have always dreamed to do. I think it’s more of whether I’ll be able to grow into a better person or help others to become better people. In the long term, even if you’re in a high paying job or job that you’ve always wanted to do, but if it does not get you anywhere, it’s not desirable.

Third, my current job is not boring, but it’s easier. The good news is that I feel that I will be able to improve myself more in this company. They even expect their employees to be spending around a certain time in a year for training. In other words, more chances for me to grow up.

Something I noticed this night about the callers was that most of the people who have mentioned that they want their dream jobs are those that haven’t worked yet, and those that have worked chose to be in the high paying job. Just an observation, but I don’t want to generalize.

Yeah, I posted this in my blog. I actually hope that some of my old officemates get to read this, and maybe some of the Magic Jocks, if their accounts in my Friendster are their real accounts.

Some people might have noticed that I had been quite emo for the past few days. After all, I told them lol. But I don’t go emo just because.

At the office? Nope. Everything is very much fine at the office. Still continuing to meet new people, doing more challenges, trying to do work… Nothing bad about it.

WoW? Nope. Why should I get emo over a game? Who cares if some of my friends have already reached 60? Well, ok I did get a little emo at one point because of not doing well with my priest, but I guess it was ok as it made me realize that I don’t really like being a priest. Maybe I’m not the one for that job. (IRL too? Maybe =P)

Family? Nope. Everything is fine at home. Expecting someone to come by this week from Canada, and I guess we’ll have some stuff from there. That’s always good. And my sis got me a Dilbert book! Gotta love Dilbert lol.

Music? Yeah I listen to emo music. Join the Club is actually quite emo for me, and right now they’re my favorite band. Sugarfree’s third album didn’t quite make my expectations, but their songs are starting to grow on me and I’m starting to think that it’s much better than expected.

Center? Nothing will ever be wrong with that. =P

So what else is making me emo? Am I forgetting something? Maybe it was because something was forgotten?

Sometimes… it’s really in the small trivial things that make one realize how much one really cares. It’s at times when you expect something small, maybe even just a few words, but then it’s not given. And it’s those who you never expected to hear them from that actually say them to you first.

I guess it’s ok. Even though there might be some that are forgotten, I do know there are some that remembered.

Again, thanks to all that remembered. =)